I've always had this attitude about this season...Spring. By attitude, I mean that I have mixed emotions and I feel 'guarded.' Guarded, because I almost feel like the rug is going to be pulled out from under me.
You get all excited, because back in the beginning of March (or February for us this year!) for a couple of weeks, even before Spring is official, the weather is warm, the air is fresher than it's been in a long time, birds are happily chirping and bragging about how awesome their life is right now, and buds are beginning to appear on trees, bushes and from the plants on the ground. I had daffodils! When we see even the tiny purple crocus peering out from the melting snow, we get this feeling of relief, because that dark, cold winter is nearly over. We feel a sense of hope and renewal and even anticipation of what is to come.
Then....!!!! BAM!!! It snows. Not only snows, but blows! And c-c-c-cold!!! The daffodils and tulips fall and surrender to the beastly, frigid temperatures and the weight of the wet, heavy snow that decided to take them over. The promise of the buds on the peach and cherry trees are stripped off, leaving those bare-naked and stark trees to boast their permanence against the white background of SPRINTER. Yes that's a word now. It's when Spring decides to have another relationship with Winter and they have this child that is very schizophrenic. And this is why I get an attitude. Spring (or Sprinter, if you will) is a big, bad TEASE! And who likes to be teased? We just want what is being offered, no tease. Let's just get on with the warmer weather, right???
But I was thinking about this attitude that I get and I really don't like it. It's very close to whining and that negative energy that is no good for anyone. So, I've decided to explore Spring a little more and my attitude as well. All over the world in so many cultures, this time of the year is celebrated in many ways, but all have a common thread as well...
I actually got the word 'transformation' in my mind as I pondered about Spring. And I thought, "well, I'm a Transformational Nutrition Coach. What does that really mean?" Well, we all know what transformational means. We watched all the Transformer cartoons and the movies. We love how they can change from bad-ass cars to even more bad-ass robots that are virtually indestructible. So I started thinking some more. I actually like being a Transformational Health and Nutrition Coach, because I'm helping people change. Change is good. Isn't it???
Obviously, Spring is one of the most transformational seasons that we have. The ground is still cold, remembering winter, yet the warm breezes and abundance of sunshine (compared to January) is beckoning rebirth and newness. The seasons represent the circle of life. It's inevitable. It's not going to ever stop doing that. We are always going to have the seasons (yes, even if you live in Arizona or Belize, you must be honest that you still have seasons - they're just not as drastic!) and even if it's deep down inside of us, we naturally welcome those changes. It's natural, normal, and beautiful.
So instead of me feeling 'guarded,' I should be feeling awe. Yes awe. We are on the threshold of this ever-changing reality of in-betweenness (yep, that's a word, too). Maybe for us who like to have a little more control in our life, it's more of a stretch to feel awe instead of just being pissed off that we got our shorts out the other day, just to find ourselves wearing hats and mittens again today.
For me, I have to work on allowing myself to allow this transitionary season to become a welcome comfort, rather than a challenge. It doesn't have to be the challenge I make it out to be. I know, this is not easy to grasp, when we were tossing the Frisbee for our dog two days ago in the beautiful sunshine with our flip flops and tank tops on, and then finding ourselves today brushing the *#&%ing snow off our cars just to get to work or school. But I need to remember to open myself up to the changes. Because we all know that change is inevitable. And Spring and Autumn both represent change the most.
Once I began to figure this out, knowing that this is permanent - change - (both words having opposite meaning), I began to feel that comfort, instead of feeling challenged by it. Change is permanent. Wow. What a concept. Instead of battling this, I let it flow. I allowed it. I'm using my senses to experience all of it and take it in.
Change is guaranteed. So instead of me whining about it, I'm embracing it, even if it changes back and forth a bunch of times. I'm deciding to enjoy it. I will find something to love about it, because it's going to happen, whether I'm on board or not. Why let something inevitable ruin my day? I'm the winner here. Because I choose to be. Surrendering to this natural fact of change is actually making us stronger.
When we experience pain, we want it to be over and we fear it never will be. When we experience pleasure, we NEVER want it to be over and fear when it will be. We would be wise to nurture the space between our spirit and what the outside world brings to us, so that we can actually be present in all things that are life. Finding harmony between the good, the bad, the fear, the joy, the pain, the pleasure, the sorrows, the changes in seasons, the changes in all of life...is really the best way to enjoy what is guaranteed anyway.
I'm going to embrace Spring. It represents change. It represents transformation. And transformation is growth, movement, life. Instead of looking at it as uncertainty, I'm going to look at it as a beautiful season of surprise! A season of transformation.
Are you ready to do some transforming? Tis the season!!!